So what do you do when it has been almost a month since you've written and the thought of putting pen to paper reminds you of the feeling you used to get when your mom used to force you to ride that tall, scary roller coaster when you were six?
So what do you do when life has become so much that you do not even have the words to help you make sense of it all and you know that writing will only shine a spotlight on the craziness?
So what do you do when you know you should be writing, but instead you think of a million excuses for why you can't?
So what do you do when you see others around you who are writing -- people you admire and trust -- and feel that there really must be something wrong with you because you can't do the same?
So what do you do when you feel like you are losing one of your favorite parts of yourself for every day that goes begins and ends with nothing written down, only promises that tomorrow will be different?
You write.
You pick up the pen or open the laptop and you let the words come out...word by word or letter by letter.
And you pray for the same thing to happen tomorrow.
So what do you do when life has become so much that you do not even have the words to help you make sense of it all and you know that writing will only shine a spotlight on the craziness?
So what do you do when you know you should be writing, but instead you think of a million excuses for why you can't?
So what do you do when you see others around you who are writing -- people you admire and trust -- and feel that there really must be something wrong with you because you can't do the same?
So what do you do when you feel like you are losing one of your favorite parts of yourself for every day that goes begins and ends with nothing written down, only promises that tomorrow will be different?
You write.
You pick up the pen or open the laptop and you let the words come out...word by word or letter by letter.
And you pray for the same thing to happen tomorrow.
Your voice has been missing here. Get back up on that writing horse and start stringing words together. Then you will be able to remember all the craziness of life around you and savor those moments you caught. Glad you are back. :-)
ReplyDeleteWhenever life gets really tough for me and I am in your situation, I have a saying left foot, right foot. Sounds like you started.
ReplyDeleteIndeed you do: write. I make lists too when I get really scared. Welcome back, writer.
ReplyDeleteGlad to see you here. Love the structure of this piece and your conclusion - "You let the words come out . . . " welcome back on the roller coaster. Terrifying yes, but eventually the thrill will return.
ReplyDeleteYou made a great start, Jennifer. I'm glad to see you here, too. Here's the quote that's so important to me, hope it says something to you! "Do what you can, with what you have, where you are." ~Theodore Roosevelt
ReplyDeleteWrite! This is the voice that we hear--and you so wonderfully obeyed. Great lesson to remember as we return to the classroom where many have not touched a pen in weeks. Thank you for sharing!
ReplyDeleteLove this! I think you really accurately wrote how it feels to come back from a break in writing.
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